ZILA NYER!

Finally holiday is here..But only 2 days (better than nothing I guess), but still things to catch up. Making grading policy, grade hw 12 for AME 300 (well fortunately I only have 22 students in my class), and yekk reading the full lab report to grade as well, prepare lab for next week. See , this is just for my 10 hrs/week teaching assignment; well at least I make money through this teaching thing. Well, for my own class, I’ve paper due for reliability, assg for elastic and inelastic mechanics, and have to catch up my advance engr math since I miss a lot and a lot of this class! Oh well, good news, I got perfect score for my reliability engr exam.. wohoooo!! And plus we have submitted our group project for this course (well, not a lot of effort I gave but it’s done!).

Humm.. I guess I’ve been spending too much time with my blog. But anyway I’m happy. Finally there is a way out to burst my anger, my complaints and anything I want. It’s a free place and freedom to speak is 100%. Is it 100%?? Well I guess not totally 100%, humm.. But well, I’ve fun anyway.

Can’t wait to go shopping tonight. I’m going to Robinson May maybe looking for leather jacket that I’ve been wanted. The price was US$299. I think for this sale I can get it for less than $99. From the ad I saw the price is $59, but I think that are for pig leather. Lamb leather cost a bit higher though. Then, I’m heading to Walmart to get a new blender. My old blender (it’s not that old, I’ve been using it or less than 5 months) broke. Humm. I never like sunbeam brand. very low quality with very low price. And maybe small rice cooker. Mine is too big for 2 people. Well, me and my husband do eat a lot though.. Haha..

Where is my husband? He’s spending too much time playing games, poker, PS 2. Right now he might play basketball, or maybe poker.  I guess he really think he is on a very long holiday (2 years). Well, he have to leave his good job back in Malaysia to come with me. So, I guess I can’t complaints a lot.

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving, so no class for tomorrow, Thurs and Friday. Hum, mlm esok we all akan buat mkn2 and Sya volunteer to cook the turkey, and I think I’ll just masak bihun saja laa.. we’ll start late at night so it’ll be ez to stay awake and start shopping for black friday. Nak shopping ape yek? humm.. nak shopping camner duit JPA x dpt lagi.. huhu.. kujam tull laa.. I’ve to survive using my salary only.. but still many bills to take care of. Rent due soon, phone bill, electric, bla bla bla. Anyway, I still not sure what to shop, but I bet I’ll find sth good and cheap and use my AMEX for those things.

Humm, Gilbert (among my best buddies during undergrad other than Adi, Dai, Hiro, George and Eric) e-mailed me yesterday telling me that he might be back to tucson during this thanxgiving so we’re looking fwd to get together catch up a bit. Ah, it reminds me my best time during my study back then. With them around things are so fun! Although they always making fun of me since I’m the only gal around. What they love to say that I don’t have to dress up nicely since I’ve no competition.. Haha.. Very funny guys! What else, oh yes, they love to say that I’m spoil Malaysian and no Malaysian will admit that I’m from Malaysia since I behave more like American.. I guess they are wrong.. I really a nice gal :). But anyway, what ever they said I stil have fun around them Going to ghost town at night(an hour drive) and turn out the place already close, going to Mount Lemmon the day before the exam (fortunately we never flunk any exam), drink at coffee xcange (well, we plan to study though we really not), and finally spend almost every night at Science Engr Library (trying to catch up and study at the same time) are the most memorable time that we have together. Oh, not to forget our surprise party for George for his graduation. Where we make a plaque (i don’t remember what we wrote, but I think sth about a good leader-he was our group leader for our final year project MAV project) and throw a party to him. getting his house key and set up the party at his place. Then we have to wait for him home for hour, but it’s worth it. We can see he almost crying for this surprise! We really really have great fun! Ah, I wish I’ve my old album with me.

After George graduated, left us taking classes (most of us no longer in the same class since we start taking tech electives). Things still fun, then Dai, Hiro, Gilbert, Eric graduated left me and Adi for our last semester. And again we only have 1 class together, Heat Transfer. Life is sooo gloom.. We just want to graduate and get out of here. Then later I graduate left only Adi alone. I can’t imagine what he going through afterwards. I just wish I can go back to those time guys.. Not only we have fun, we actually famous in our dept.

Today I’m back to school, the same old dept, same lecturers. And the lecturers remember me, even some of them remember my clique, and ask me what all of you guys up to.  See, I told you we’re famous back then! Well, we’re not best students in AME but at least we’re not the worst student after all.

Ah.. i’m writing too much about you guys. Anyway, Happy Thanksgiving wherever you’re. And good luck and never forget our memory together :).

Ah, this is second time I’m writing in this blog. Nothing special happen to me today. I held my office hour this morning and got few students drop by asking hw questions. 2 students from my own section 2 from Sergio’s section and 4 from Chun Mei’s Section. And great news is this is the last hw for this class, last to grade for this semester other than another 3 lab reports to grade! Well, lucky for them, but for own classes I still have hw’s and exams to face huh. A project done, and another project to face that I haven’t even started yet. Damn it! I thought I’m done with project but that f*#king prof annoyed me again and again. This f*#king proud French guy, I hate seeing him. Duh! He gave exam and project that due on the same day. I thought I’m done with project, then he add other questions for the project. Then he gave hw due on the eid. I didn’t do well in the hw then he pointing finger to me for not working hard enough? shut up man! leave me alone.. And worse all (well it’s my own careless though), I miss a hw that I really didn’t realize it’s due that day and he laugh out at me for not being responsible. Shut the F**k out man! I never ever had this kind of annoying lecturer to deal with. Well, I know some, but never have to deal with them. Well, I guess my class is too small with only 7 students, so I’m really at the center of attention since other guys (no gal) in my class are old (they got white hairs everywhere at least) and some of them are in their last semester of their master or even PhD students. Argh! This f**king lecturer really make we want to change my major from solid to something else.. something else?? maybe psychology.. where you just have to observe people and write something out of it..(Analyze people stress instead of beam stress) or.. humm.. history, where I just have to read and memorized.. No more math things, physics thing, understand the theory, apply the theory in math, re-learn the math as you go along, remember back all the physics, dynamics, statics formula (which unfortunately I do forget those) as I try to solve my hw problems..

Argh.. what I need now is just motivation. So take that son of a **** be my challenger. But the last thing I need now is another semester with him. But you know what, I realize one thing (i don’t know about other engineering students). Well, I have realized this since my undergrad. A lot of lecturers who teachin’ mohr circle actually have mohr circle on their head. I mean BALD.. Haha.. that what we like to make fun about (at least me and my best buddies Daisuke and Hadi). Funny huh? well  maybe not funny to you guys, but we find it hillarious at least

first time I write here.. Humm.. nak tulis ape yek? Well, here I am. Achieving want I really want before. A career that I really want. Working my ass to reach to this stage. But today, I hesitate. Do I really want to do these? Oh, how much I hate those grad students in my dept. How much I hate these professors that are so nosy. Keeping my life busy. Homework, projects, assg, exams! Despite of that; lab to runs, paper to grade, dealing with my students, dealing with my supervisor, attending classes and worst case is getting a good result! What if don’t care to study? What if I mess this semester badly? What if this is not the thing I want to deal daily? The answer is I have to pay. Pay my life with my own actions. Pay to fail everyone hopes. My husband hope, my family, my future family, my dept at UPM hope, my sponsor hope, research supervisor hope, and my own hope! I have a great life today, but if I fail, I lose all! It killing me thinking of these thing, but my mind still not accepting that now I’m back as a student. A grad student, no longer undergrad. Oh, how much I love and miss my life as undergrad student!
Oh, so much with complaints! On my left side, hw to grade, right side, Lab report to grade, and in front of me, a pc that calling me to have fun (games, chatting, surfing, etc) but in mind is hw to do, project to finish, final exams that coming soon. I’m so restless. Thanksgiving pls come soon, winter break I love u!