ZILA NYER!

Tomorrow is Sunday, last day for my break. I have a really fun break. I went to Cabazon shopping, Vegas gambling and back to Tucson to meet a celebrity, Normala Shamsudding. Opss. Datin Seri Normala. And now I don’t feel like studying but I have a test waiting for me. Test in composite materials class teach by Dr Madenci. Let me tell you something about Composite. This is a new area with a lot of lack of knowledge. And that’s what I’m learning now. This knowledge is still little but a lot to investigate. Tell you the truth, there are bunch of formulas after formulas I have to see in a day, but then end up the problem is not solvable. this is one crazy thing isn’t it? I Spend 1 hr 15 min looking at a crazy formula for pages and pages, and end up my lecturer said this prob can’t be solved! what’s the point showing all those thing and make me think that I must be in a dream or crazy to able to solve those equations.
So now the test I’ll have this tuesday is close book close note exam. And we have finish the whole text book in 2 months, and the whole text books are just formulas. I’ve no idea where to start and what to expect on the exam. I have only less than 2 days to finish study the whole textbook and lot of online notes (I think about 300 pages online notes). I don’t know if I really not capable to do solid mechanics  or I keep getting crazy lecturer in this field. I mean I do ok for other subjects why not Solid? why not the one that I’m interested with. The more I learn solid, sometimes the more I like it, and sometimes the more I hate the subjects. Guess what? I really don’t understand myself nor the subjects.. hehe..

5 days more.. 5 days.. Yeay.. But first, I have to finish my hw, hw and hw.. And then an exam.. But after spring break, another exam.. Gees.. I’m really looking fwd for the break, but not for the test and hw obviously.

Ha.. what want to share ha??it’s been really long time since I got a chance to write dorn at my blog again. This week news, sya n fir (my beloved kind of roomate) da blk malaysia looo.. so, no more friends to play games with. We are totally crazy about games, sometime we can just play games from morning till midnight. Poker, Masterpiece, Uno, scrabble, shark shooter, who want to be millionaire, 20 Q, clue, etc. Give us any game, we can play all day.. heh. but my most favorite game is clue, but they hate to play it with me. I guess I’m so much like a detective.. Well, that’s the only game to use brain, the rest is depend on your luck, where so far my luck hasn’t been with me quite for a while

Then, what new? Humm.. last few days I sent my hubby’s resume to KLA-tencor, a company doing semiconductor thing. To my surprise, he received a phone call an hour after I sent the resume. So, if everything goes well, they wil set up an interview sometime this month. And if he got a job, he’ll be relocated close to SF (we apply for san diego). But I don’t really mind, if he get that job, good for him and for us, though it means we have to live in different city and state. And at the same time he’s applying for a job in Miami, Florida from one of his friend father who doing a business in aero industry. However, althoungh we’re really excited about the news, we still haven’t apply to renew our I20.. I should do it today, but then i totally forgot, right after class I just hit home to finish my hw, hw, and hw!

Ah, too much about hope. I know it’s not easy to find this "professional" job that we really really want. But sometimes it’s ok to dream right? I mean sometimes not everyday! But my hubby got so irritated when i talked too much about my dream.. hehe. well, since I can’t tell him about my dream cause he don’t want to hear, why don’t write it down.. hehe.. well, maybe you guys think I’m crazy, which is kinda of true. hehe. I already checked out universities close to SF and Miami, in case.. well in case I need to transfer Univ or planned to pursue my PhD to follow my beloved baby.. hehe. well, at the same time I do need to check out which univ to go to.. so what’s wrong sambil menyelam minum air (drink water while swimming?!). I mean if he don’t get a job, at least I get some info about other univs out there.  Ah, talk about PhD, do I really want to study and study for another yearss??.. Good question, but I still don’t have the answer yet..

Fuhhhh..hummm.. well, talk about that, I myself still haven’t sure when I’ll get my master degree. This is my 2nd semester here, and I haven’t check out about what research i want to work on. The one I interested with is in civil dept, so when I contacted the lecturer in CE dept, they want me to take some courses in their dept 1st before they want to consider to hire me as RA. But the prob is, I don’t have time to wait to finish the course 1st. The course they want me to take won’t be offered until next spring 07. So that means i have to extend my study if I want to do research under CE dept. And it might take 1-2 semester to finish simple project if they agree, then I won’t graduate until 2008. gees.. that’s why people said, "it takes a lot to get what we want(fulfill our dream,desire, etc)". And in my case, it takes time, money and my youth! I’ll be 27 when I get my master. Not only that, how I’m going to deal with my JPA, UPM. And worse thing I never get what I want, I want to study chem E before, but MARA asked me to do Aero, now again I’ve to deal with JPA and UPM. Argh.. it takes sth from you when u rely too much upon scholarship. I know if i’m single I can do my own decision, I’ll go ahead do what I like and used my financial aid from U of A to pay for my study and my monthly expense. But since my husband don’t like the idea and risk I’m taking, he won’t let me do it. That’s one of the reason that I really really hope he’ll get a great job so money won’t be a matter to us anymore, and I can just study w/o worrying about how long I want to take my time.. heheh..